Waves will keep coming !!

I love it when I sit down to write and I have no idea what exactly will come out. But I always know when the timing is right. This one is about waves and how we face them. It’s for everyone who goes into silence zone in his relationships. I am that person. I am trying to let go.

Missing you comes in waves. Like a lot of things in life do.

Grieving, acceptance, moving on … Some explain it as a list of certain steps that you have to go through, but I never feel like that. Instead there is a constant flow of emotions coming and going without a warning, until one day you feel calm. Calmer. Or maybe you just learn how to stay above the water.

First comes the big wave. Shock. Panic. It crushes you and in that second you have no idea how to survive. What is up, what is down, where to swim, how to save yourself. There’s just water all around you and nothing you can hold on to. People usually think that’s the hardest part, but I disagree. See, in that moment you are still fighting. You are not exactly helping yourself, but you are fighting.

After that – nothing. You may call it apathy or depression. You just stop, because you feel powerless. Things happen and you can’t control them, there is absolutely nothing you can do to change them. For me feeling powerless is worse than anything else, I have a hard time accepting that I would do everything for someone and it would still mean nothing. But that’s how it is. And from that moment on – that’s how it’s always going to be.

Luckily, around you life is still happening. You are forced to live, if not for anything else for the fact that you have to work. So you go on and do the things you do and mostly you feel just fine. When you’re surrounded with good people and you do the things you love, you receive good energy and that’s contagious. So sometimes your worries seem so small, irrelevant, even stupid. You think back and you’re asking yourself how the hell did you let something or someone take the life out of you while there is so much happiness out there. You remember that everyone experience hard times and they get through it. You smile, you dance and you are excited again. Doesn’t mean it’s done.

This happens a lot. It can be the most random thing like something that your loved one used to do, a familiar perfume, or a song on the radio. You are driving in your car and you pass through the same road which both of you used to take once upon a time, those ice-cream parlours. It can be something you don’t even recognise and you can’t connect it to the person … But it’s a trigger. And it all comes back.

Some waves are small and some are big, and they keep coming. They keep bringing back that feeling. I don’t fight them anymore. I don’t ignore them and I don’t try to distract myself from them. When I feel “an episode” coming, I let it overtake me, I let myself be in that moment. I hold nothing back. Because I know that this too will pass. So in a way it is just a reminder that I still care, that I am human and that I’ve lived. All of the things that I’ve described can happen in a minute, a day, a month, a year or a lifetime. The thing is that as long as something is important to you, it will come back. Maybe not as strong, but it will.

There is something so divine and profound about waves. How they can be deadly and relaxing all at once. Maybe that’s why I love the oceans.

~A Staunch Believer

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Toh kya baat hai !!!

Apne khwabon ke bare mai sochta hoon, toh lagta hai mere pure ho jaye sare khwab, toh kya baat hai,

Khwab me jo dekhta hoon hakikat mai mil jaye, toh kya baat hai,

Jin tammanaao ko lekar aarman sajata hoon, wo tammana puri ho jaye, toh kya baat hai,

Jo aarzoo hai mere, woh hakikat ban jaye, toh kya baat hai,

Mere andhere aashiyane, roshni se jagmga jaye, toh kya bat hai,

Apni manzil tak ke raste ko pura kar loon, toh kya baat hai,

Mujhe mil jaye meri manzil, toh fir kyaa baat hai,

Meri saari chahte yun aasani se pure ho jaye, toh kyaa baat hai.….!!

~A Staunch Believer

Happy B’day Mom ❤❤❤

You would be the strong roots,

If I were a tree.

In my life’s horizon,

You are the endless sea.

Mom, I don’t know how to convey,

How much you mean to me.

There is no limit to my love for you,

You are my entire world, you see.

Age can’t touch you,

Your beauty radiates from within.

Love is the reason for your youthfulness,

Which you keep giving to the family.

Every day seeing your face,

I feel lucky to have you in my destiny.

Wish you loads and loads of love, happiness, health and prosperity mummy.

No words are enough to express our gratitude and love for everything that you have done for us !!

From : Tom & Jerry ❤😍😘😘😘😍❤

WHAT FRIENDS ARE FOR!

Intent is far important than content. A child may buy a gift for his parents from the very same pocket money they had given to him. But because intent of the child is selfless, it still feels like a gift when they take it into their hands.

The greatest and noblest leaders of society have always been those who have been straight and forthright in their speeches, policies and activities. These leaders were not orators, but people who spoke with simple words. They were not handsome, rich or beautiful. But people listened to them, followed them. It’s not money, fame or power most people really want. Deep inside, what they actually crave is a sheltering friendship.

A true friend. One who never deserts you. One who is always there when you need him. One who defends, protects and forgives when you have wronged. That is a friend. He or she might be in form of a parent, sibling, relative, colleague, good book or Guru. But a good friend is someone everyone needs.

These friends tell you the bitter truth, but it’s easy for you to swallow because you know their intent is pure. You know they are not using the truth to pull you down or hurt you like others do. You know they are using it to pull you up and heal you, like no one else does. Such friends don’t have political agenda in their lives. True friends have eternal unflinching plans for you.

Friends are committed, determined. They put you before themselves. They love you as themselves! They appreciate you more than the whole world put together. They know you through to your bones. They understand every beat of your heart and every frequency of the thought-waves in your brain. They comprehend the agony of your soul and ecstasy of your dreams. Yet, they manage to handle them all; controlling your tantrums, calming your nerves and cradling your soul. Isn’t this what most people want ? Someone to soothe them and assure them everything will be all right in the end ?

But such friends are so rare! And only true spiritual mentors live on forever. Parents, spouse and friends pass away. Fellow siblings pursue careers in far off lands. A feeling of loneliness and defencelessness descends on people – however rich or powerful they may be – when they begin to lose their nearest and dearest. But this is life’s trademark.

We cannot prevent our closest ones from leaving us alone in this harsh, wild world. But their intent in leaving us is pure too: they are nudging us to take their place as selfless friend and guardian of someone else! We must follow their footsteps and tread their path. As they were unto us, we must be unto others. Even if you can’t be as helpful as the friend who helped and guided you, you can still bear his essential qualities: a pure and pristine intention. Most of us will never do great things, but we can all do small things in this great, selfless way!

Silent Memories !!

Silent Memories are the reason for this post. In my relationships, I go silent just because I believe if you don’t understand my silence, you will never understand my words. 

“Writing is like breathing, it’s possible to learn to do it well, but the point is to do it no matter what.” – Julia Cameron 

It does not matter how long or slow or fast you choose to write, how many bends you choose to follow, how many stops you make along the way.

Sometimes you cannot see the bigger picture until you are silent in the middle of an ocean, or speeding 120km/hr down a highway. And when the days get hard do not forget your semicolons – for the times you chose not to end a sentence because there was more to say.

That every story has a beginning, a middle, and an end. May be you might not want the story to end, instead of argument and confrontation you may prefer going silent, to preserve warmth and affection of the precious moments and memories which you shared.

But when the story drags on too long and you forget how to write, forgive yourself and remember to keep trying, keep writing. Scribble over newspapers and foggy car windows, Scrawl across bathroom walls and between the lines of fingers traced across your skin.

Write until you no longer can, until you forget the way it hurts between the breaths you take deep down, Until you remember the fresh taste of morning air – before it seared your lungs and left you gasping, choking.

Write and do not stop. Do not be afraid of broken hearts or broken bones, Only be afraid of broken words. Anyday I prefer having silence over broken words.

It does not matter how you write, There will always be someone to find your story beautiful. To sing along into the spaces between your middles, your ends and your beginnings.

~A Staunch Believer 

 

Graduation day speech !! 

A very good morning to your excellency, respected principal as well as teachers, and dearest students.. 

Well.. Standing here, I feel as if it was just yesterday that I had stepped out of school, time flies by so fast. #nostalgia

I am immensely blessed to have this opportunity to be amongst you today and I thank school management for extending this generous invitation. 

I precisely remember my graduation day and how I was one like you and how precious and dear those feelings still remain alive in the heart. From my personal experience, I can guarantee that today, 15th Feb is going to be one of the most memorable days of your life. You will cherish this day much much more than the marks which you secure in the examinations.. those recess bells, school anthems, morning assembly meets, short break, long break, ending the day with national anthem, extended PT sessions, toffee distributions on bdays, school uniforms, unpolished shoes, postponed haircuts, waiting for school buses in mornings, writing thought for the day, class picnics, last minute bag packs for school, submitting countless projects, not doing homework, punishment by teachers for making noise, throwing chalks and innumerable other mischiefs.. Yes even after 9 years of school today I miss all of the above and each memory is fondly cherished on a lazy sunday mornings.

I am sure that all of you have already put in a lot of hard work during the past few months and it is only a matter of time that it starts reaping dividends into your marksheets. Give it your best shot and I am confident, you all will come out with flying colors.. 

Quickly few examination tips : don’t panic, don’t over think on what you want to pursue after 10th, don’t lose confidence in yourself, don’t waste time in comparisons with others for this is a race in which you have to compete with yourself, revise as many times as you can, be calm and cool, manage to your time wisely, be precise and to the point.  

There is a universal truth we all have to face whether we want to or not, everything eventually ends. I have always disliked endings, but endings are inevitable. Leaves fall, you close the book. You say goodbye. Goodbye to everything that was familiar, everything that was comfortable.

Life will change a lot and at much faster rate hereon.. wherever destiny takes you to whichever corners of the world, be in touch with as many friends, teachers and faculty as you can because these relationships have some of the strongest roots which have been nurtured for long period of time and such bondings are precious and one of the most valuable assets to carry in the so called journey of life.. Today take lot of photos, exchange as many promises as you can, make the best of these moments and excel in whatever you want to do.  

Madam Grace Pinto had told this to all of us during our farewell and I would like to tell the same to all of you in my concluding statement, “Fare Well in anything and everything that you do in Life.”